Didn't need an epiphany because I was bitch slapped by reality

As predicted, Tony pulled a disappearing act and then lied to me about it. Tried pulling the whole "talk in circles until their too confused to go on" trick on me not realizing that I perfected that particular trick. Anyhow long story very short, he's gone again. Not sad about it because I knew it would happen, come on give me some credit for being an intelligent, slightly empathetic, educated human being! No the whole part that pissed me right off was that 2 people that were my closest buddies, lied for him and tried covering for him. He knew what the consequences of his actions would be because he was told the 2 rules as soon as he walked through my door. If at 41 years old you can not take responsibility for your actions than you are a sorry human being and obviously not worth my love, my time, my consideration, my energy, my empathy and definitely not my sympathy.

No the 2 buddies that lied straight to my face, that hurt. And what's worse, is that none of us saw that coming. That little betrayal will not go by the wayside.

But enough about that, bottom line I am fine. I was very correct in my assumption that going down someone else's path would kill me. I need a partner in life and my adventures not someone that I have to babysit and care for constantly. Someone that doesn't want my way or your way but our way.

Started getting back to normal life this week, have to get back into my routine because right now it's been kind of chaotic. Have 2 birthdays, a wedding and school starting all in a week!! AAAHHHHH!!!!! Oh but it will be so sweet when school is back in session, lol!

Ok unless something completely off the wall happens (knock on wood, say a prayer) I will be returning to my usual satirical bloggings this week.

Till next time Faithful Readers,
BEX

Weird dreams, epiphany, emotions

Last night I had a dream that I drove off a cliff in a car with a friend. Your always told that you will not remember landing or that you will wake up before you land. Well, Faithful Readers I am here to tell you that, this is bullshit. I dreamt of falling and I hit the ground and I recognized that I was dead.

My interpretation is that if I follow someone else's path I die. Figuratively or really? I don't know faithful readers.


Tony is back. Was this the right choice? I ask that every day. I know that there were 2 people that did not let me fall in the hole that he condemns himself to. Can I fix him, No. I Can't fix me. Can I help him through this, maybe. Just like other people carried me, maybe I can do the same. Maybe I can make up for the Strawberry Shortcake issue that I have or maybe I can make his life better? Maybe Tony came home because of a self realization? Or maybe I was convenient? But what we do in this life is the greatest acts of forgiveness and love. Maybe this is my lesson in trust. Or maybe this is my lesson in what will come to me if if I trust in someone. This is my lesson and I don't know where it will bring me, but I do know that it's a lesson.

"One can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
Lewis Caroll

Till next time Faithful Readers,

BEX