Last night I had a dream that I drove off a cliff in a car with a friend. Your always told that you will not remember landing or that you will wake up before you land. Well, Faithful Readers I am here to tell you that, this is bullshit. I dreamt of falling and I hit the ground and I recognized that I was dead.
My interpretation is that if I follow someone else's path I die. Figuratively or really? I don't know faithful readers.
Tony is back. Was this the right choice? I ask that every day. I know that there were 2 people that did not let me fall in the hole that he condemns himself to. Can I fix him, No. I Can't fix me. Can I help him through this, maybe. Just like other people carried me, maybe I can do the same. Maybe I can make up for the Strawberry Shortcake issue that I have or maybe I can make his life better? Maybe Tony came home because of a self realization? Or maybe I was convenient? But what we do in this life is the greatest acts of forgiveness and love. Maybe this is my lesson in trust. Or maybe this is my lesson in what will come to me if if I trust in someone. This is my lesson and I don't know where it will bring me, but I do know that it's a lesson.
"One can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
Lewis Caroll
Till next time Faithful Readers,
BEX
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