It's been a seriously crazy month and a half, Faithful Readers. I apologize for being absent for so long but as you well know by now, if I'm absent for an extended period of time it's because the Universe went to a whole new level of Chaotic even for Bex. When last I posted, I was in full Summer mode and had made the realization that I could in fact, be happy again. It was an exciting time in my little Bex Bubble. The problem with this way of thinking is that I put on my blinders and headed down that path not realizing I was about to be blindsided by "Murphy". There's too much that happened in such a short period of time for me to detail it all. Suffice to say it was all snowballed into a 2 week period of residing on the 7th Level Of Hell.
Then, I moved. New apartment, no more mold issues, no more kitchen wall falling down, no more running into the Ex from Hell, no more upstairs asshole neighbors. It's all over.
In the process of Bex World collapsing it actually began to renew simultaneously. I made a new friend through my buddy Tony that would become pivotal in my new life and my survival in the destruction of the old life. I reconnected with someone from my past that made me see that.......well we'll get to that. And most of all, if it weren't for the emotional support of my best buddies I wouldn't have made it through. Tony, most of all. He's a good friend and when I'm stressed and freaking out he becomes my rock and reminds me that I can and will get past anything that comes my way. I couldn't have done it without him by my side and have a new appreciation for his friendship.
Now even though I have a whole new life, I still have the same tendency to procrastination in the morning lol. Yep I'm sitting here in my Transformers Jammies, sipping coffee, listening to the news and writing to you my Faithful Readers. Nothing has changed in that aspect.
Unfortunately, I am living without cable and just got internet a few days ago so my current events/world news knowledge is limited to talk radio. LOL, as of course nothing can happen smoothly even in the new life, I have a TV but it's older so I required a converter box. Finally got that and an antenna, it's Sunday. Bex has football!!! Oh wait no, no Bex doesn't because I finally got the damn converter box hooked up and working but the antenna is broken, wtf!!! Of course I could get cable and completely bypass this whole issue however, someone I trusted evidently used my information to have a cable account and now it will cost me over $500 just to get this set up, not an option at the moment. Well we have internet so I'm thinking that I will be finding a site to live stream my football because I will be damned if I miss football!!!
My new place is kinda far out into the suburbs. Beautiful area, lots of amenities in the community. One of these being miles and miles of walking trails! This excited me, I like walking and hiking and especially in a wooded natural environment. Me and the roomie decided to finally go check this out the other day because it's right outside my door!! Talk about some incredible luck!
Everyone knows that I am a huge history buff and especially local history. There isn't much about Central NY that I don't know. Except this, right outside my door, along these walking paths are these crazy abandoned structures and paved roads! Where the hell did these come from and why do neither myself or my room mate know about this?? We had literally only gotten 30 yards from my door and came across a wonderful older gentleman that we approached, asking if he knew what these foundations were from. What luck, he did know! He explained that this whole area was once a munitions works in WWII! All of these old structures are part of a military installation that built and stored armor piercing munitions! How perfect is that? I literally live in my perfect place, local history I wasn't aware of, abandoned structures that I can explore at my leisure and photograph! This makes me blissfully happy in a way that is inexplicable. How does life get better in Bex World you ask? Let me tell you how this wonderful new life got tied up with the perfect bow.
Earlier I mentioned that I reconnected with someone from my past and that we'd get to that explanation. Often in life the old saying that you'll find something when your not looking for it happens to be very true. In the midst of chaos and the destruction of my World, in the middle of me personally breaking down in the worst ways possible emotionally, I managed to find someone that I had often thought about through the years. Sometimes I would ask old friends if they knew how he was doing or if they knew what had happened to him. Always to no avail. One time I did hear some news on him and it seemed to be happy news so I left it alone but it didn't stop that fleeting thought from occurring from time to time. He was my first love, my first High School sweetheart, you always wonder what's happened to that first love. That love that seems to teach you the ups and downs of love and so often ends in teen angst the likes of a Shakespeare play. He found me and we began to talk every now and again. We hung out one evening and when it came to needing help moving, he offered to help out. From that day on it's very much so been like living in one of those fairytale stories that I love so much to get lost in. Neither of our lives is perfect and we are both jaded and a bit broken but it would seem that our broken pieces fit together to make us both whole. He makes me happy in all ways humanly possible and what's more, he makes me want to look forward with hope instead of just existing in the now, to believe that having a partner in life to share life with, just may in fact be possible. I look into his blue eyes and see all the beauty of the world inside one man's heart and soul. It amazes me that no one has seen it there, I get lost in the wonder of sharing time with him. I wasn't looking for this, I definitely wasn't expecting anything like this to happen. Especially after not too distant debacles of the heart and so many years of resigning myself to an individual, single lifestyle. Sometimes you do find exactly what you want when your least expecting it.
Till Next Time Faithful Readers,
NEW AND IMPROVED BEX
P.S. I promise we'll go back to normal Chaos and Candy content when next we meet :)
Then, I moved. New apartment, no more mold issues, no more kitchen wall falling down, no more running into the Ex from Hell, no more upstairs asshole neighbors. It's all over.
In the process of Bex World collapsing it actually began to renew simultaneously. I made a new friend through my buddy Tony that would become pivotal in my new life and my survival in the destruction of the old life. I reconnected with someone from my past that made me see that.......well we'll get to that. And most of all, if it weren't for the emotional support of my best buddies I wouldn't have made it through. Tony, most of all. He's a good friend and when I'm stressed and freaking out he becomes my rock and reminds me that I can and will get past anything that comes my way. I couldn't have done it without him by my side and have a new appreciation for his friendship.
Now even though I have a whole new life, I still have the same tendency to procrastination in the morning lol. Yep I'm sitting here in my Transformers Jammies, sipping coffee, listening to the news and writing to you my Faithful Readers. Nothing has changed in that aspect.
Unfortunately, I am living without cable and just got internet a few days ago so my current events/world news knowledge is limited to talk radio. LOL, as of course nothing can happen smoothly even in the new life, I have a TV but it's older so I required a converter box. Finally got that and an antenna, it's Sunday. Bex has football!!! Oh wait no, no Bex doesn't because I finally got the damn converter box hooked up and working but the antenna is broken, wtf!!! Of course I could get cable and completely bypass this whole issue however, someone I trusted evidently used my information to have a cable account and now it will cost me over $500 just to get this set up, not an option at the moment. Well we have internet so I'm thinking that I will be finding a site to live stream my football because I will be damned if I miss football!!!
My new place is kinda far out into the suburbs. Beautiful area, lots of amenities in the community. One of these being miles and miles of walking trails! This excited me, I like walking and hiking and especially in a wooded natural environment. Me and the roomie decided to finally go check this out the other day because it's right outside my door!! Talk about some incredible luck!
Everyone knows that I am a huge history buff and especially local history. There isn't much about Central NY that I don't know. Except this, right outside my door, along these walking paths are these crazy abandoned structures and paved roads! Where the hell did these come from and why do neither myself or my room mate know about this?? We had literally only gotten 30 yards from my door and came across a wonderful older gentleman that we approached, asking if he knew what these foundations were from. What luck, he did know! He explained that this whole area was once a munitions works in WWII! All of these old structures are part of a military installation that built and stored armor piercing munitions! How perfect is that? I literally live in my perfect place, local history I wasn't aware of, abandoned structures that I can explore at my leisure and photograph! This makes me blissfully happy in a way that is inexplicable. How does life get better in Bex World you ask? Let me tell you how this wonderful new life got tied up with the perfect bow.
Earlier I mentioned that I reconnected with someone from my past and that we'd get to that explanation. Often in life the old saying that you'll find something when your not looking for it happens to be very true. In the midst of chaos and the destruction of my World, in the middle of me personally breaking down in the worst ways possible emotionally, I managed to find someone that I had often thought about through the years. Sometimes I would ask old friends if they knew how he was doing or if they knew what had happened to him. Always to no avail. One time I did hear some news on him and it seemed to be happy news so I left it alone but it didn't stop that fleeting thought from occurring from time to time. He was my first love, my first High School sweetheart, you always wonder what's happened to that first love. That love that seems to teach you the ups and downs of love and so often ends in teen angst the likes of a Shakespeare play. He found me and we began to talk every now and again. We hung out one evening and when it came to needing help moving, he offered to help out. From that day on it's very much so been like living in one of those fairytale stories that I love so much to get lost in. Neither of our lives is perfect and we are both jaded and a bit broken but it would seem that our broken pieces fit together to make us both whole. He makes me happy in all ways humanly possible and what's more, he makes me want to look forward with hope instead of just existing in the now, to believe that having a partner in life to share life with, just may in fact be possible. I look into his blue eyes and see all the beauty of the world inside one man's heart and soul. It amazes me that no one has seen it there, I get lost in the wonder of sharing time with him. I wasn't looking for this, I definitely wasn't expecting anything like this to happen. Especially after not too distant debacles of the heart and so many years of resigning myself to an individual, single lifestyle. Sometimes you do find exactly what you want when your least expecting it.
Till Next Time Faithful Readers,
NEW AND IMPROVED BEX
P.S. I promise we'll go back to normal Chaos and Candy content when next we meet :)
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