My heart hurts for the choices that you made that will forever keep you from being the person that you could be, the person that I saw. It hurts for the lies that you've told and by doing so, destroying the honor that you could have held inside yourself. I feel sorry for you that you felt the need to get so drunk that you don't even remember verbally attacking me, my sons', my mother and my best friends. Why would I forgive you for that? You thought you were so slick talking to Kayla but here's the funny part, you don't remember that I told you and your mother about my family's past with drug addiction but that I also told you that my Mom has been clean for 17 months. And anyone that's known me for 5 minutes can tell you that I have never touched the stuff and they'll straight up laugh in your face for calling Dave a crackhead. You found out old news from a drug addict that hasn't spoken to me in 3 years and has continually proven a coward by running away from me, congratulations for finding a mouth breather as low as yourself. My heart hurts that you felt the need to lower yourself to such subterranean levels, to act so viciously towards me and my people when we did NOTHING to you but offer you our friendship, love and a home.
What really hurts me though, truly breaks my heart, I let myself believe in you and I hurt an unbelievably good person because of you. I acted against my own values and I hurt someone innocent that did not deserve the way I treated him. I almost lost a faithful friend. Almost.
It always bothered you that I do not say goodbye to people. And that is a part of me that I would not and will never change. Until now. Because for every rule there is an exception. I will not forgive and I will not forget, not in this lifetime, not in the next. Your hateful, malicious behavior, your obscene continuous pathological lying, all of this and so much more that you have done and said combined together ensures that my forgiveness will not exist where you are concerned. Hell, your own people will not stand behind your behavior and lies, what does that say about the person you are deep down inside when your own family and friends do not and will not back you but instead they tolerate you at best.
Because of your actions I went against my peoples' advice and my own instinct, I contacted 2 law enforcement agencies and made them aware of the situation. The next step is to file the report, submit all of my evidence against you and your insignificant other and, well....you know what comes next. Do not push me, it will not be advantageous to you in any way. You've seen me slightly aggravated, you do not want to see me pissed off.
You make my heart hurt not because I have feelings for you, my heart hurts to see a blatant waste of what could have been a decent human being and instead became everything black and evil a human could become until there is no humanity left in them anymore.
For your own best interest, forget that I exist. The consequences of continuing to stalk me will not be pleasant.
Know this for a most certain fact: You no longer exist in my Universe, no one that is within your life exists in my Universe. You have destroyed the rights that you had to share my world and all within it and all that encompasses it. You do not exist.
Sincerely,
Rebecca Dawn Van Marter-Ragsdale (BEX)
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