Happy Holidays and why this pisses me off!

Hate to burst your bubble but here's a news flash for all my "Christian" relatives, friends, readers, general public that continues to post the increasingly annoying and persistent "It's NOT happy Holidays, it's Merry Christmas!" bullshit on every single social media site on the entire internet......Christians are not the only religion with a holiday that falls in December you ignorant, uneducated, self centered, inconsiderate fucks. In fact, let's set the record straight here. Christianity is ONLY 2,000+ years old, as far as religions go, that puts you all in the adolescent stage. Judaism, Hinduism, Muslim, Buddhism they all predate you by a couple thousand years. Oh and please let us not forget that half of Christianity's "Holiday's", their rituals and ceremony's are all based on Paganism so that when Christianity infiltrated an area there was less rioting by the general public. Where do you think your tradition of a "Christmas" Tree comes from???? Oh and for all of you posting "Put Christ back in Christmas" and then posting pictures of your children and grandchildren on Santa's lap, you are the worst hypocrite! FYI: Santa out dates Christianity also. But if your so worried about Christ's birthday why propagate the Santa story??? Not very Christian of you if your saying those presents are from Santa and not brought to the kiddies by Christ.

Now I know that your getting pissed off at me but wait a minute because I am going to make a valid point here. I am not bashing Christianity!! I am not. But it does bother me that some (not all) Christians preach tolerance and blatantly are intolerant of something simple as a holiday phrase. I say "Happy Holidays" because it's POLITE to acknowledge that not every one is a Christian. did you ever stop to think that someone's feelings may in fact be hurt if you wished them Merry Christmas and they in fact do not or can not celebrate it due to a religious difference than your own??? Stop and reflect, how would you feel? I've taken to replying to "Merry Christmas" by looking that person dead in the eye and saying "Thanks, I'm Jewish!" it's a gentle yet firm reminder that not every person out of 7 billion on this spinning ball of mud is Christian.

Although after this little stint in a retail environment during a holiday season, I beginning to believe that holiday spirit loosely translates to homicidal psychopath! I have never seen so many seriously pissed off people, I mean like really truly angry, hostile people. The general public does not seem to comprehend that I am not personally responsible for their inability to actually read a sales flyer and that I did not personally take all those popular toys and set them on fire out back to insure that their children's holiday is ruined entirely. People, I am a cashier/sales floor associate. The CEO has not called me recently to gather my professional input on sales and neither have the shareholders, these decisions believe it or not, are made by people in a MUCH higher tax bracket than I, so please for the love of all that is fucking holy stop yelling at me!!!

Okay, really didn't set out to sound like I was bashing Christianity but that's how I came off so please accept my apology! I really just wanted to make a valid point of tolerance towards holiday's and point out that some preach it but don't exercise it as they should.

Faithful Readers remember all year to be tolerant and kind and considerate to fellow human beings.

And if it's not too much to ask, don't yell at the cashier/sales person, they're human too ya know!!!

BEX :)
Happy Christmahanukwanzanewyear!

Well played Mr. Tatum, Well played!

I'm not generally one for chick flicks unless they are exceptionally funny and I mean really truly laugh out loud funny. How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, Sweet Home Alabama, those are my kind of chick flicks because they crack me up. I personally like action films but even with those I tend to be a bit picky, especially so with action films based of my favorite comics or cartoons! Nothing pisses me off more than an X-Men or Hulk movie because they completely jacked up the story line like a couple million true fans wouldn't notice! I find it annoying. With that being said, I discovered a loop hole in my snotty movie critique. Channing Tatum.

Channing freaking Tatum! That guy is WAY too pretty to be passed by with a click of my remote! I physically can not pass his image by because I know he's going to be funny, natural, charismatic, sensitive and drop dead, panties wet, sexy on fire times 100, gorgeous in every damn movie he's in!

I have sat through some of the most awful chick flicks to ever be made because of this man. Dear John had me sobbing like a little bitch, The Vow had me sobbing from my very soul over lost True Love and ready to go beat Rachel McAdams with a fucking baseball bat for breaking my man Channing's heart! I sat through 2 HORRIBLE GI Joe movies for this man. I fucking watched Step Up! Seriously watched that flick because he was in it and a man that pretty will not be ignored by this BEX, NOBODY PUTS CHANNING TATUM IN A CORNER!!!! I sat through the movie Fighting, which is worse than Step Up trust me!

Then he released Magic Mike. 110 blissful minutes of Channing Tatum stripping. Great God in Heaven thanks be to you!

Thus solidifying my future heart wrenching viewing of horribly depressing chick flicks and bad comic movie reboots forever.

Well played Mr. Tatum, well played Sir!!

Till next Time,

BEX (NO, John, don't open that letter!!!!) 

Coffee overdose, Politics, and funny true life events!

Working long hours, walking every where I go, eating like a starving super model and having a really ass backwards schedule is really paying off for me! Lost those stubborn, stupid 15 pounds and only 3 pounds away from my goal weight, SWEET! LOL, yes I realize that this is possibly the worst and most unhealthy way to lose weight but I've tried all the "Right" ways and gotten no where so fuck it! I'm happy and sexy, that's all that matters. Being that I have a seriously messed up schedule, I end up watching allot of late night TV. There are like 20 different types of diet supplements geared towards women in their 40's with "Stubborn Belly Fat". And it got me to thinking, I have the most success losing weight and getting tone working out when I consciously stop eating on a regular basis and replace it with some sort of exercise. I've tried supplements and they almost NEVER work. So it may sound rude but here's my thought: Put down the god damn fork and go for a walk ya tubby bitch!

I don't intake allot of caffeine generally. I have 1 sometimes 2 cups of coffee in the morning and then it's water all day long. I don't drink soda pop. Maybe once a month I'll buy a Pepsi but a 16 oz Pepsi will last me 2 days. What I noticed as I went to go set my coffee down and my hand was shaking like a strung out meth addict, is that my caffeine intake has radically grown thanks to the weird hours that I am keeping. Now I am up to a pot of coffee and 3 Mountain Dew's a day. I just noticed this because I am off today and not on my usual hurry up and get to work mode. I don't have to be constantly On and Up, up, up today. Wouldn't all those people laugh if they figured out my cheery, people person, social, hap hap happy disposition is all caffeine induced! Probably not, given my cynical anti-social true personality. The Evil Bex can't wait to spring that on them after Christmas, mmwwhahahahaha!!!!Ya know, when they figure out that me smiling generally means something is going to explode rather soon :)

I am a Republican, I voted for Romney. There, I said it. I don't care who you voted for and I suggest you not care who I voted for as it is neither of our business. Obama won the election, okay, well good. At least I have 4 more years of snarky blog fodder. That being said, I noticed a trend that is kinda disturbing to me and I can't put my finger on the why of it. There have been various late night jokes and SNL skits about Romney losing but they've actually been kinda easy going on the guy like even the comedy world seems to feel sorry that he lost. No attacks, no mean spirited "I told you so's" just really light hearted minor funnies. I was all geared up to be furious at people for attacking my loser candidate and then......nothing. Nobody did. Huh, I have to wonder if maybe, just maybe, people voted closet Republican this year?

Again, had myself all geared up for constant negativity being that I am in a retail environment. Haven't gotten it yet, *Knocks On Wood*, seriously all of my customers are super nice. Even when we are slammed and the lines go down the aisles everyone has been friendly. Was not expecting that at all. My co-workers are alright, there's 3 out of 20 that I could live without happily but I just avoid them to the best of my ability. I actually made friends with one person. Try not to die from shock but yes it is another female, I know! Crazy, right!?! I like it there, it's a pretty cool place to work. Really went into it with the whole negative attitude of yeah, it's a distraction but it's still WORK, UGH! Glad to be wrong, it's much more fun than I anticipated. But with all things in Bex World, there are some seriously bizarre occurrences. Last Friday the trend was a new sport I like to call: Inebriated Retail Triathlon or the IRT. Rules: Participant must be drunk, not buzzed but assed out, slurring drunk! Stumble down the aisles, bouncing off each side WITHOUT knocking down displays, find item by asking sales person in drunkenesse, get to cash register while following the aisle rule again and pay for your purchase WITHOUT passing out anywhere inside the store. Yesterday I modified the Rules to include Stoner Hippies with Nerf guns.

I was honestly surprised but the first person that I saw drunk there, thought it was a fluke. But it continued all night so I just sat back and watched, following at a safe distance to see who won and who tried to break the rules of IRT, laughing at the ones that took the baby doll aisle as there return route, freaked out and failed when all the dolls with their motion sensors sprang to life in almost demonic fashion! Hehehehehe!!!! Thinking about making an exclusion to the rules or adding a sub-rule pertaining to that one baby doll aisle because honestly, that aisle is fucking spooky, creepy, weird when your a sober employee! It's got to be a 100 times worse for a drunk shopper!

I play in my head the entire time that I'm there. IRT, imagining the Animal Planet aisle coming to life, the gynormous 2 headed Red Dragon springing to life and eating the stick figure stock guy that in my mind looks like claymation, Oompa Loompas in the Wonka aisle rolling the fat chicks through the store singing the song as they all turn into giant blueberries. The Toy Story aisle coming to life only instead of being wholesome family fun waking up the exact opposite. Sometimes and I'm not exaggerating, I laugh out loud at the stuff going on in my head while I'm there. I try not to because it creeps people out or they want to know what I am thinking. WTF am I supposed to say?? "Well, I was imagining that blonde getting chased out of action figures by a foul mouthed, drunk, womanizing Buzz Lightyear trying to fondle her." No, don't think that would fly. "Oh I was picturing all the specimen bugs in the Science aisle swarming that chick I do not like, kinda like the movie The Craft." Um no. "I was picturing the store as a Tim Burton film." Eh, that one might be okay. You get the idea. I do have a repeat customer that looks EXACTLY like Pat Benatar. I've even taken to calling her Ms. Benatar, her and her husband love it and think it's hilarious. Seriously, first time I saw her I stopped dead in my tracks and thought it WAS Pat Benatar, freaked me right the fuck out! She is one of my favorite people and I look forward to seeing her on weekends, lol. I see her and ask her to sing a different Benatar hit, evidently she's a fan too. HAHAHA, even at the toy store Bex has regulars! Too funny!

My recent experiences have prompted me to question one thing though. How come Canadian's are so pissed off all the time? I have not met a nice Canadian in a month! Even at Wegmans Grocery store I came across a group of truly pissy Canadians at midnight. wtf is that about????? I'm sorry you feel the need to shop all the way down in New York but damn don't take it out on us! You have free health care, we have better mall's it's a fair trade for you Canada person! Oh and just FYI, Canadian accents and sarcasm do not translate and/or mix particularly well. Just sayin' is all.

Faithful Readers, I hope you were as entertained as I was. It's nice to sit down and chat with you as we use to. It's nice to resurrect this habit :)

Till Next Time,

BEX (Drunk chick down in aisle 3!)

It's Been Awhile!

Wow, didn't realize that it had been 2 1/2 months since I had last written! My sincerest apologies, Faithful Readers! This Summer was not allot of fun what with one dramatic event after another, it had unfortunate consequences but some eye opening beginnings after the nuclear endings. Usually I find myself unable to do anything but write after these traumatic events because I want to make certain that someone besides myself is witness to the truly crazy happenings in my World! However this was entirely different, I found myself witnessing one crazy moment after the next in rapid succession with no break in between and to be honest it kinda of threw me for a loop. I have needed, more than any other time, seclusion and privacy to sort it all out. I failed, LOL!

Come to find out my near obsession with making sense of things sometimes only makes me crazy! In fact it seems that sometimes crazy is just crazy with no sense to be found, I learned the valuable lesson: Walk away and give it not one more thought!

So that being said, I got up, shook it all off and started a new job! Nothing special, just part time through the holidays. I may get the chance to stay on after but I am not stressing it right now. It's a fun job and I'm having fun with it, for now that's all I need or want. It has kept me very busy though, yet another reason that I have found myself unable to write recently!

All in all, life is busy but quiet and very domestic. Exactly the way I prefer it! And it's the way I want to keep it until after all of the Holiday craziness!

I will try to write more in the coming days, for now just wanted to assure you that I hadn't disappeared :)

Till Next Time Faithful Readers!!

BEX

Controlling your Karma

For a minute there I truly wanted to write one hell of a nasty ass blog. I wanted to purge my soul of all the negative, immature, unnecessary, bullshit that has been brought to me in my home in less than a week. Purge it all and give you, Faithful Reader, the chance to contact a person that was right in the middle of it with me to clarify my facts Not the absolute fabrication that some would have you hear about this past weeks events.

I reconsidered for one reason and one reason alone. It's not fucking worth it.

Controlling your Karma isn't as hard as you would think. Do the right thing, not just for you but for others. We are all connected on this big spinning blue marble. Don't act maliciously for self centered reasons, don't act maliciously for any reason! Think before you act and before you speak, the energy that you put out into the World will come back to you three fold. If you consistently do bad things, bad things will begin to happen to you. Everything happens for a reason.

Be grateful for the people that touch your life with happiness, love, friendship. These are the people that you cherish! Be grateful for those that bring smiles and warmth and light to you. If you don't then when the darkness in life comes you will regret it the most because you will be alone in that darkness with no one to take your hand and walk through it with you.

When I was younger, I use to hold grudges. As I became older I realized what a waste of energy that is. And just recently I realized that the best way to deal with people that will drag you down, take advantage and take you for granted is this: walk away. You can't save everyone and you can't help those who don't want to be helped. You can only do so much. If a person wants to take your generosity and repay it with negativity, laugh. Because you will not be the one to suffer for it.

I may not have allot but I am grateful for what I have and for the people in my life. I have friends and family that love and respect me, I have a home, wonderful children. I have allot of love, loyalty, friendship and goodness to share.

Life is too short and no one gets out alive, Faithful Readers. Control what you put out into the Universe before the Universe comes back and kicks your ass!

BEX! 

Allot of hard lessons

Haven't really felt like writing in a while. Too much on my mind, too much stress, too much pent up anger over situations that I let control me instead of me controlling the situations.

My dad and my friend Maverick say that I am too accommodating to people that take advantage of me. I have never really looked at it that way. I always saw it as giving someone the opportunity to be the good person that I see inside of them. People don't always see other people the same way that I do, no matter how they act I always try to look for the good in a person, see the light inside of them that might not be apparent to everyone else on the planet. I give multiple chances to people and I don't like to say goodbye to anyone that's been in my life because I like to believe that eventually they'll see in themselves what I see in them.

I had to walk away from one person that I care about very much. It's all just better if there is distance between the two of us. The whole situation is just unhealthy for us both, no one's fault, no one to blame, it just plain does not work. If he called me up today and said he needed me, I'd be there without a second thought. However, I have to have boundaries for my own mental and emotional well being. Nothing really to be done about it but shrug, accept it as it is and move along. Keep it all black and white. ;)


Kicked my room mate out finally. He did something that I considered disrespectful and dishonorable to another friend of ours. I told him exactly that. He got pissed that I questioned his honor and decided to spear me off my bed and attempt to choke me out in front of my kid. Yep that about shows you his idea of "Honor". Considering he's lived off of me for 8 months and only in the past 3 weeks started contributing a whopping $35-$70 a week, yeah not feeling the loss. And as far as the "friendship" goes well, with friends like that who needs enemy's?? There's too much bullshit in the last 12 years to begin to list. Every single person that's been in my life in those years has had something to say about this situation and I have continually turned a deaf ear, now I'm listening. Now I am done. But just because I am done does not mean the multitude of you can begin with the "I told you so's" because my dad already beat you to it!

My buddy's girlfriend passed away this week. She wasn't someone that I knew particularly well but I liked her and my heart hurts for him. He loved her. Been doing my best to help him through it and be there for him when he needs it. It's been rough on him and it makes my heart ache to see him hurt because he's such a strong person and has already had so many negative things happen to him this year. I believe that he will be able to work through this all and I hope that good things come soon to him.

Today has been a disappointment, something happened that hurt my feelings. But after everything that has happened recently, I realized how completely insignificant it was and I felt stupid for feeling hurt even for a moment.

I once wrote that out of destruction comes creation. It was a blog about things coming to an end so that other things can begin.

I will turn and walk away from all of this having learned allot of hard lessons. I will take away from this what I have learned and I will be a better person for it. Tomorrow the sun will rise on a new day and with it the opportunity for me to be the person that I have not given myself the chance to be. I have changed my path significantly, I will begin to change my stars and for once in a very long time, I have hope and a  smile that isn't forced or fake.

"After all, tomorrow is another day!"

Till next time Faithful Readers,

BEX THE OPTIMISTIC :)

A requiem for unrequited love

I've sat and considered what to write for awhile now and this blank page just keeps being........blank. I've considered writing every single detail down for the sake of getting it all out of my head and attempt to make some (Any) sense out of all that has transpired in just a few short days. I've considered writing all that I am feeling so that I could sort it out. Here is what I came up with:

I am hurt. You and your actions and your insecurities and your need for false, plastic, shallow gratification. All of this hurt me because I let it hurt me. That doesn't excuse you but I do share the blame. I never should have let this happen because I knew better but I let my heart lead me, I saw what I wanted to see, I acted on  hope.

There is no animosity, no anger, because even though I blinded myself and saw what I wanted to see, some part of me has always been painfully aware that you would revert to this behavior, I know you better than any person on the planet. That knowledge unfortunately, brings me no peace but does afford me a sliver of understanding. Not acceptance just understanding.

My friendship does not have an expiration nor does my loyalty but I, myself have boundaries for my own health and well being. I can only handle so much before I become physically ill. Spent all day Tuesday throwing up because of this situation and another unrelated incident with my egg donor that decided to go off her medication.

I digress.

My friendship will always be here but being an intensely emotional person, I need some distance for the time being for my own well being. For whatever reason, we seem destined to share our lives, each of our paths seems to intertwine with the others' and I don't see that ever changing, I hold out the hope that someday the pieces of the puzzle will fit together by themselves. Because I did find my "Jack" he's just tragically broken and lost even if he doesn't admit it and refuses to see it by leading a shallow existence unbefitting the incredible person that I see inside of him. I really hope that no matter what happens, someday he sees in himself what I see.

For now, there is nothing that I can do. I can live my life, that is all. I won't let go but I won't hang on either, if that makes any sense. But I can't keep falling down this rabbit hole because it kills a small piece of me every time. It's time for me to climb up into the sunshine again. Preferably in a nice pair of heels :)

Till Next Time,
BEX


PS. Sorry that this one is such a downer, let us all hope that an adventure(Preferably, please God, a pleasant one) befalls me soon :)